Log from September 21st:
My Mistress's presence has led to a lot of give and take. She gives me her protection, and in turn, I give her all I have in me to give. The only thing is...sometimes - very rarely - she has these lapses. She becomes disoriented, confused...she acts almost drunk. The first time, she nearly slipped away back into the Empty City. I panicked and begged her to stay, so she did...but she seemed so...weak.
She goes on about strange things, but the part that worries me is how she addresses herself. She'll refer to the Red Cap like it's something else entirely. It's as if she doesn't know who she is. The dog gets antsy, while she's in that state - growling, getting hostile. At one point, it even attacked her. She slaughtered him, and left a pile of rotting flesh where the canine used to be.
Just thinking back on it gives me nightmares. I swear that pile of skin looked familiar. Maybe that's just my mind playing tricks on me, but even so... I'm not exactly sad to see the dog go.
After she killed him, she became herself again. Still, periodically, there are...lapses. Times when she stops being my Mistress, and becomes... 'Red'. Before, there was no telling one from the other, but...
Have I gone mad? Is it only my perception that's changed?
The only certain thing is that I don't feel safe with her, when she isn't strong.