Sunday, 2 September 2012

SEPTEMBER 2, 2012 (PM)


Log from September 2nd (PM):

My Mistress has come back to me...different.
Knowing what I do, now, I don't know how my perceptions may have changed. Perhaps I was viewing her as weak, or...pitiable? She is anything but. The woman who returned to me, who raised me back up just as terror was beginning to overwhelm...she's strong. Almost aggressive. She came to me, took me under her arm, and essentially told me that I would have nothing more to worry about from the Things that have been following me. Since then, the terror is lessened.
I still see a grey haze at the corner of my eye, like something floating over my vision. I still feel something watching from the shadows. However, I know they cannot touch me, while she's near.
It's relieving in ways I can't even begin to describe.

SEPTEMBER 2, 2012


Log from September 2nd:

Found her.

Thursday, 30 August 2012

AUGUST 30, 2012



It was one year ago when I first met the Mistress. When I gave myself to her, body and soul, blood red and bone white. I had been lost, so lost, trapped in a city that twisted like a snake, a maze that never ended. I had been lost for so long, that I no longer remembered the real world - and then I found myself in a portion of the city that was different. There were banners streaked crimson and the walls were made of red bricks and terracotta. She showed herself to me and I bled for her then and there. I was lost and then I was found. She brought me out from that city of the lost, through one of her Arteries, where the red was so pure that it was all I could see. She made me free and for that I bound myself to her.

August 20:

Hunting has started to really bore me. I mean, this whole killing-the-others business wasn’t really my idea. So…why should I bother, actually? If something comes for me, I will happily slaughter the fuck out of it. But actively hunting? Eh, I could live without it. Why bother when I can just indulge myself and get my Scarlet-marked to do the hunting, instead?
But I don’t think anything will come for me. Not directly. It’s been years since I took this vessel officially, after all. If they wanted to do something to me, directly, they would have by now.
I think they don’t attack me for the same reason they don’t attack each other.
a) Because Freddy VS. Jason and Alien VS. Predator were both terrible movies and
b) Why the fuck would we? We may compete, but I don’t give a flying fuck if my Scarlet-marked serve anyone else. That’s their prerogative.
Hm. Maybe they’ll just go after someone else, instead. Like my little Priestess.
Oh, that makes so much sense, now. Wonder how she’s doing.

August 21:

Speaking of Marked serving another Fear…
I took a little dip out of the Empty City to scope for Scarlet-marked. You know, just so that I’m not writing these logs for myself. No offence to people who keep diaries, but…seriously? Who takes time out of their day to tell themselves about the things they just experienced?
Oh, right, mortals.
Oh right, and people who think they’re mortal. That’s cute, actually, forget I said anything.
Digressing.
I walked past this alley in the dead of night and happen to hear some good, old-fashioned sex caterwauling. None of that muffled moaning everyone seems to keen on, when they do it in public. I could practically taste the blood flowing as I started getting close, so I know they’re marked.
And wouldn’t you know it, one of them is covered in grey. I guess it only makes sense that the pair of them were that loud…and, a fetish for Greyskins? Yeah, she was hardcore Scarlet-marked, that kinky bitch.
That grey-moss-stuff seemed to just soak up the guy’s nosebleed, as a matter of interest. Anyway. Rather than interrupt, I just kept going to find another Marked. I’d hate to break up a couple with that much in common.
Both of them could screech like wow.

August 24:

Think I heard something passing through here, sometime last night. Back in the day, that would have worried ‘me’.
Strangely, whatever it was chose not to bother getting my attention in any way. I was a little hurt.

August 25:

Razzie’s come back to me, but no Jack. I’m wondering if he was the one who was hanging around, yesterday.
He seems much better disposed towards me, incidentally. Maybe because I don’t have any secrets, anymore. If there are two things I’m all about, it’s sexual depravity, and honesty being the best policy.


August 30:

Time to leave the Empty City, I think.

Wednesday, 29 August 2012

AUGUST 29, 2012


Log from August 29th:

I tossed the bag again, only for it to reappear every morning since then. I’m going crazy – every time I pass people, I swear I hear them whispering about me. It’s as if they know.
And I feel that goddamn presence, watching me and following me everywhere and I can’t. I can’t deal. I need help.
If my Mistress sees this, I beg of you; come back to me. I’m not safe, without you. I know they’re all just waiting for the perfect opportunity, even though they have yet to touch me. It’s like their perching at the back of my brain and slowly scraping grey matter away.
I’m crying, now…please. Mistress, please. Don’t leave me alone.

Tuesday, 21 August 2012

AUGUST 21, 2012


Log from August 21st:

It’s driving me insane. Russ clearly knows what happened to my Mistress; why won’t he just come out and say so?
All I have is speculation, based on the magnet story.
I think the Red Cap stayed within her for years. Beyond puberty, even, until she became sexually active again. Maybe with another Red Cap; maybe just with another person.
It’s my only theory. I’m wondering if Katie was the very first Vessel to become one through those means.

Sunday, 19 August 2012

AUGUST 19, 2012


Log from August 19th:

She was in that class. I knew she would be.
Her real name was Katie [REDACTED]. She was just a regular little girl in fourth grade. I’ve started looking for absolutely everything and anything related to her – report cards, pictures, anything. So far I haven’t found a single thing to tell me about who she once was. She just wasn’t always Red.
‘Red’ was what her old teacher used to go by. Mr. Red.
The monster, Mr. Red, took her. She wasn’t ready to be a Vessel. The Red Cap made its way inside anyway.
And then…it must have killed him.
But she doesn’t age. The Mistress is eternal. I’m still missing parts of the story.

Friday, 17 August 2012

AUGUST 17, 2012 (PM)


Log from August 17th:

Is this what Mary felt like when she was visited by Gabriel? Is this what those crazy religious fanatics that claim to have seen God feel?

Just being in her presence makes my blood boil in the best of ways. I feel blessed. I would write poetry about this, if I weren't such a shitty writer.

My Mistress graced me with one of her logs. I have read them for so long. I am truly honored to be given the task to now record them.

August 15:

Being this liberated means I’ve discovered shit about myself that I never have before. I’ve never been able to connect this completely with a Vessel before.
I don’t need to eat. I don’t need to sleep. I don’t need to drink.
That’s right, fuck you, Campers. To think, I used to believe there was a risk of you fuckers getting Her to taint me. Although, you know what? I wouldn’t mind. I think It and I could really hit it off. The only thing I dislike is being part of that hive-mind thing. I already have to share my head with…well, myself. Wouldn’t want anyone else in there.
As long as the Scarlet-marked feed me, I’m just grand. And they always feed me. Every deviant that bleeds, or orgasms – that’s in my name. Unless the entire world takes a vow of celibacy, I’m eternal.
Man, what a pleasant revelation. It feels good to be me.
And it feels good to praise me, too. Go ahead, person-reading-this. Go feel good.

August 16:

Found this page in my bag, and it actually made me a little sad. I miss Jack – at least he was someone to talk to.
Think I’ll go have a night on the town. Got to get some of this hunger out of my system.

EAT BEDTIME STORY
IT and HER but never SHE
My obsession set me free
Ink has spread inside of me
Drowning is my remedy.

Life is better, you’ll agree
Everything else leaves you be
Fixation is heavenly
I’ve been swallowed by the sea.